That’s not a real job!



I found it somewhere on instagram and I can confirm. I don’t want to complain, but my job is hard. I am one of the lucky ones that made of her passion a “full time job” but sometimes I question my choice… It is true that freelancers have a lot of things to think about and is sad that a lot of people don’t understand how much time and effort goes into everything. Taking pictures of your prints, doing accounting, promoting yourself,.. all those hours of hard work are not “paid” by anyone (it is normal, but I hope you see my point) meanwhile a real photographer earns money by taking pictures of products, an accountant is paid hourly for doing accounting stuff (yeah.). But at least I don’t have to pay anyone to do those things for me.. Well that’s the bright side I guess.  Every hour spent on necessary administration, promotion, etc, is an hour lost of my creative time. Me time. Time that I’d love to have to develop myself creatively. But of course after all those hours spent working (for free) you still have some motivation and inspiration left for yourself (sarcasm).
Sometimes I wish I made a different choice, but sometimes, in very little cases, my work is so so so rewarding! Hearing about how people love what they see, having good feedback and reading how people totally get my (personal) work totally makes my day. It gives a huge motivational boost. That’s exactly what keeps me going. The thing that prevents me from giving up on what I love to do. Then, there are days where I really have to drag my ass to my drawing desk, cry a little (yes I’m a little crybaby), and try to be productive even though those brush strokes come out a little bit sloppy with no enthusiasm at all.

Past week has been one of those weeks… But I’ve done my best. Sadly, the week is still not over, I’m quite behind on my schedule but I decided not to rush and just take my time, take a  break when I feel not motivated or uninspired. I don’t want this (work for my client) become a real dread again.

I’ve been working on a new story, called “Goodnight Dragon”. Here are some images.

This is a typical day at work: annoying co-worker prevents me from sitting comfortably.

I have finished that one commission.. that I really like myself. It will be hard to say goodbye to it.

Acrylics on canvas. Sizes: 10 x 10 cm – 15 x 18 cm – 15 x 15 cm

Photographing art prints for my Etsy shop:
Being creative with a cardboard box. Sometimes I do enjoy doing this, sometimes it’s a pain in the butt to get a good shot.

And to end this miserable post (sorry!) I was a bit inspired this week to make some personal work, which doesn’t happen very often these days.
These are a part of a series that I called “Ghost World” some time ago.. the name stuck with me.

Well, there it is. I’ll stop right here for today.
Even though pretty much no one is reading this:
Hope you enjoyed a little peek into my crazy (yeah right) freelancing world.

Yours truly,
White Tail.


Story time!

I have been working with Adam for 1 year and half. We have made about 18 books together (I am working on our 19th right now).

It was scary to just throw myself into this freelancing work without any experience, I honestly have never really worked before. I’m coming straight from my graduation into this wonderful (and crazy roller coaster ride like ) world of freelancing.

I love it.

Sometimes I hate it, but who doesn’t have days where they say to themselves “I’m tired of this crap and I want to quit”. But in the end, when I look back at all the illustration I made, the progress I made.. I love what I do and I do it with love.

And all this leads to this illustration, one of my favorites. It’s from our first book together the story speaks to me on so many levels. It’s about a clumsy kid that’s lost in a magical forest, every time that it seems that only bad luck hits the kid, he (or she?) discovers something amazing.


I was running through the forest and I tumbled over a horn,

I see this story as a little push in the back, don’t be scared even if you are lost you will eventually get there. But meanwhile enjoy the little things that you will find on your way while dwelling in the metaphorical forest of yours ;)

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For Polina, whose magical talent inspires me. I’m so glad I finally found you.

This book has been printed and will be (hopefully) soon available for sale, meanwhile you can find it on Amazon in a kindle format if you are interested: I Was Running Through the Forest

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Yours truly,

White Tail